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I'm girl who used to be bubbly ,cheerful .. and so jubilant...  ..

 

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one day,I decided to study overseas despite all of my sis's warning...  not telling anyone,I went there .. 

 

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my life started to change

 

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 clearly,I remembered.

at the airport.. my excitment and expectation reached their peak states as I arrived the destination.

 "oh.. it's gna be so fun to be here" i thought.

 

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if u think this story is gonna be like a happy student enjoying her life there.. full stop.. i shall ask u to click X at ur top right corner now..

 

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I now regret to study oversea.. .. why!? u may ask..  Ironically,I don't even know why .

Feeling shld be the best answer for this question..

feeling alone?? mayb yes mayb no ... throng of ppl r around me everyday ,yet it felt as though I was all alone carrying this world on my shoulders..

 

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I duno what's going on with my life .. the only thing I know is to live or "survive" everyday god gives me

 

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I'd been doing it all wrong since i was young..  hd been pondering if i could hv a better life .. not realising that I WAS ALREADY HAVING THE GREATEST THING IN MY LIFE .. 

 

I've been tking unimportant ( for me ) subject .. i can't do a single thing now and that's the worst i can say..

 

I've been saddening a person who is so so so damn important to me .. I swear that I'd be greatly immersely extremely certainly absolutely distressful if the person does the same thing i did (several times) to him!

 

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my sense of feeling loses.. numbing would be good word to decribe.. unnerving and disturbing situation i'm facing.

almost evey second tickles by, I could still feel the sheer agony.. I'm really praying  it'd soon (very very soon) fade away.. and never ever come bck!!

I realised that i've losed some of my self-reliance , self-confidence and believe.. I'm soon becoming a new person i've never ever wanted to be..

I felt as though every time i speak, it was in an unsure manner,tentatively..

i cn't get why I hv to put a million train of senseless thoughts in my mind. I hate doing this.. 

 

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I wish I could reel myself back to time when I was 12 years old.. I wish I could steal few more years back to stay with my parents and sisters, to dislike going overseas, to heed my sis's advise..

 

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the end ..   be cheerful, BUAY plz dun overthink!  I reitiateeeeeeeeeeeee.......

 

 

 

 

 

 

ok ..  first of all .. it's been "quite" -- a long time i din care abt my space ..so i feel good actually that i'm updating now!

 

last few days i actually went to POPULAR (bookstore) and came across with one book i really liked and so i bought it..

 

its cover says "never shower in a thunderstorm".. the qns poping up in my head "REALLY?" ..and "WHY?"

 

the answer is YES .. u risk electrocution if u shower during a thunderstorm..  consequences could be as severe as death ! O-O

 

why??? because a bolt of lightning that hits a building- even one that is protected against severe weather- can travel through plumbing, into metal pipe and wirng and SHOCK anyone who comes into contact with a faucet or appliances!!

 

doesn't it sound too bizarre to be true ?? .. to me a big big "YES" ..

 

As i have read part of the book ... there's another fact that really interests me .. it's about "Do right-anded people live longer than lefties?"

 

I'm one of minority in the world who're lefties .. and because i was getting down while reading this ..

 

Lefties who make up 10% of population in the world ,have been slighted from CENTURIES. In Latin, the word left is "sinister", while the word for right is "dexter" related to dexterity. In French, the word for left, gauche, means "clumsy": the word for right. driot, gives us the term "adroit".. it's so unfair to use such bad word "describe" lefties in my opinion..

 

studies have shown that the life span of lefties is about NINE yers less than their right-handed counterparts!

 

possible REASONS are whether it's pressure of living in a world designed for righties and the talk of having shorter life spans. these cause lefties to ahve higher rate of depression,drug abuse , allergies, and schizophrenia.. I absolutely agree with this point as I, being lefties, actually feel very bad when i'd like to join or do sth new and found that it's not meant to left-handed people.. eg. basic thing like knife for peeling fruits last time there's no design for left-handed.. so upset thinking about that.(coz when i was young i like helping mum in the kitchen but always found myself helpless when it came to peeling cucumbers, carrots,etc... my good deed=futile Y-Y) 

 

however it says that lefties have an advantage in sports like fencing, tennis and baseball (i can't play any of them though - -') not to mention greater academic success and higher IQs. (I really felt glad at this point but again "really?" qns poped up) Eg. Five of America's last eleven presidents were LEFTIES, even though they make up only 10% of population!!!

 

so now .. should I feel good (about the advantage) or bad (having shorter life span) ???? - -'